Too Many Scary Nights For Me... I'm Glad Oct. is OVER.

I use to Love Halloween, I still like it but not like I use to. I use to prepare myself and watch scary movies, really get in the mood. I can’t even watch a scary movie commercial now, it is pathetic. It was fun this year with Kloey being older and a little more involved. My sister Missy and her kids were staying with us, so that made it that much better! Chelsea, Joe and Ryah came out and Joe carved pumpkins with the kids. It sure made it nice to have all of them here. But Halloween day was just Scary! My Mom went in for open heart surgery… (so weird) and it went well, she is home now resting. It was just a hard for me; I guess more of a reality check that I really have NO control of things. None of us do really. That is hard to swallow, because I am a control freak! Before my Mom went in for surgery the Dr. came in and told her what he was going to do, and he said, “now you know your not in control anymore” and as I looked at my Mom I wanted her to say “YES I AM” but she willingly said “I know” That just really got me thinking, a lot of choices that we make we control, but on the other hand… some things are just out of our hands! I am so grateful I have knowledge of the Plan of our Savior; it sure does make things a lot easier. I am also grateful everything went good with the surgery! After a couple hours in the waiting room, watching Missy make a tutu, and Kloey run around like a mad women, saying a MILLION prayers in my heart, and finally seeing the Dr. come out with a pleased look on his face, my heart felt for my Mom, and the LONG recovery she will now face. I didn’t want to see her after… I know she wouldn’t have really remembered me their, I just didn’t want to see her like that. I saw her Sat. and Sun. and each day she looked so much better! I am glad it is over, and I know my Mom will be stronger and feel better; it might take her a little to get to that point be she is on her way!